Monday, January 16, 2017

My darling darling baby,

You make me so happy that I`m afraid I might just burst out of overwhelming love for you someday.You are so much fun to be with nowadays. Now that you have recovered from your ill health and are constantly chattering away ever so cutely ! You are amazing all of us with how much of English you have picked up and how you have already started speaking perfect sentences in perfect long paragraphs which make us feel as if we were conversing with an adult. All of this and you are yet to turn 2.5 !

Aah, it has been quite a few days when I`ve become this lovelorn mommy who just wants to bear-hug you and smell your hair and watch you make those puzzled cute expressions while talking or singing away. Yesterday I decided to cook a feast for dinner on a whim and was slogging it out in the kitchen pretty much the whole evening. While I`m stirring the curry and checking the oven for the dessert I notice you carrying my heavy water bottle with all your strength and handing it to me "Mama jol khao , peas peas jol khao". And that when I realised I hadnt had a sip of water since morning. I could`ve puddled into mush that moment. My lil baby, my lil concerned dutiful lil baby got her mama water to drink. You knew while I didnt that perhaps I could be thirsty.

God, I love you so much !!! I just keep looking at you sleeping peacefully beside me and kiss your lil hands and smell your head before i cuddle up next to you - my favourite routine these days. You have started waking me up with a nice cheery gooood morning and giving me sudden hugs with an "I love you mama". I wish you could always remain just so - my darling compassionate adorable little peanut. Nothing is big enough to bother me these days - all I have to do is think of you and I get super-charged with energy to face anything in life to just kep you smiling so. And oh, that giggle of yours. I wish I could put it down in words how inexplicably happy it is. It`s like happiness gigglified :D The other day Baba and I made the effort to meet up midway from our offices for a quick post-work coffee date. We ordered our coffees and Baba took out his laptop to fill in his appraisal which was initially supposed to take a few minutes but actually lasted a whole 2 hours. He kept mumbling "I`m sorry re, this is just taking longer than expected". Normally I wouldve given him hell to have turned out precious date to an appraisal filler. But even I was surprised how okay I was with it. I was smiling the entire time just in anticipation of meeting you and giving you the lollipop I`d got for you from my office cafeteria. I could picture you letting out a squeal of "Thank You mama" and just that was enough to keep me happy the whole day. You did run around for hours licking that lollipop the next day and coming into our room every now and then telling me how "orange is my faveeeeerite colour" "I loveeee it" along with your cutesy hand gestures.

This part of life my darling child is called - Being overwhelmingly and uncontrollably in love.

Muuuah,
Mama Bear

Saturday, December 31, 2016


My Darling Kuhash,

Today you made me so happy. Baba and I were flush with appreciation and inspiration for the movie Dangal. ( I hope someday we get to watch it with you). And as is my wont, I started wondering which sport is that you would/could possibly take a liking for. So off I went bombarding you "What do you want to play Kuhash - Cricket, orr badminton , Football maybe , or Tennis" and you just gave me your trademarked puzzled expressions and retorted "Books".

I didnt know whether to scream out of Joy or feel a tad bit disappointed. Oh well ! Never mind. Books sure are the family`s favourite kinda weight to carry around :)

then again in the evening while you impatiently tore apart an Amazon parcel of "Matilda`s Cat" and puppy-eyed me into reading it aloud to you. I did as was ordered and was folding the book shut when you blurted "amar aar kichu lagbena , only Mama lagbe ... and books"

Moments like these are what makes me smother a confuse you with Kisses and Mama Bear hugs.

All my love,
Mama



Thursday, June 5, 2014


Wrapped up Week 26 !

Double celebration time ! It was Jamai Soshti yesterday and you completed 26 weeks inside of me :)
So off we went to Zizzi`s for some nice Italian food (one of those very few days when Baba needs to be pampered ;) )
Your Baba is one helluva funny man who made me laugh so bad that even you started bouncing inside. Aahh !! I love you both so much. Didn`t know it was possible to feel this madly about you and I haven`t even set my eyes on you yet :)
We also bought the first of 'baby belongings' for you over the weekend :) Practical stuff yet I couldn`t stop smiling when I clicked on the checkout cart. It was a little milestone but something quite concrete. A physical testimony to your impending arrival ( Your mamma is a gooey sappy woman I tell you :P )
Yesterday Neelesh Uncle had a little baby boy. So you already have a friend ready and waiting for you.

Stay safe and happy in there my baby. :*


Wednesday, May 21, 2014


Done with Week 24 !!

Yayy! We complete 'viability week' or whatever that means ! No one`s going to tell me when is it that they will bother to make efforts to save you - coz it doesnt matter. Not to me and not to your Baba. Coz we know we would never even let the thought of you fighting to make it, cross our minds. We are a family already. You, me and Baba and we don`t need anyone to tell us if it is possible to 'save' anyone of us. It was never a question and it will never be one. We are so shamelessly obsessed with you that harmless kicks and thumps make me giggly happy and make Baba wistfully wish that he was able to carry you inside of him :)
Just stay safe junior and stay happy in there ! :)

Cant wait to meet you !!

Wednesday, March 5, 2014



Last day of First trimester

Grateful. That`s what I feel these days. Grateful to you - the entire 3 inches of your being that`s bobbing and bouncing inside. Thank you ! For making me love myself. For making me feel proud and confident of myself.
All I want right now is to reach in and give you a tender little squeeze of a hi-five. And Mummy`s chicken biriyani. And some nice adrak-wali chai from a dhaba. Sigh!

Monday, February 10, 2014


Week 11

I`ve been moody, cranky and flatulent like never before. Last Friday was my first booking appointment with the midwife and the first scan is on the 27th of Feb. A full 17 days before I get to set my eyes on you for the very first time !!
The wait is killing but what is more depressing is that there is nothing to look forward to before then.
The days just chug along and I keep rubbing my growing belly. Wondering how many people are taking me to be an irresponsible glutton trying to hide the holiday fat (which should be long gone by now) under layers of winter clothes.
I don't feel like shopping. Don't feel like cooking. Nothing !! Just aches and pains and weird scary dreams.

But yeah the cravings are there. Of being loved and reassured that I still am the same person I was. Of that hyped pregnancy glow - that still eludes me. Of Hyderabadi Biriyani from Victoria Road, Bhojohari Manna`s Daab chingri, Samosa`s from Sharma`s and Maa`s chhoto maach.

Straddling two places in my heart - Bhubaneswar and Derby. Between Mommy-Daddy and Saby. Aaarrrghhh !!!




Monday, January 13, 2014


Soooo, you made your entry into our lives and what an entry !!! On the 1st of Jan 2014 !! A new year, a new life to hold and to cherish forever.